Wednesday, January 6, 2010
But from time to time, thoughts are coming in as a good content for some blogs and I regret for having no time to go back to writing these days. Heck, I'm sure I'll find my way to write again and for the mean time let me post this tiny thought that just popped out of my busy mind upon trying to participate in a Filipino forum thread, where my ad posts are very active:
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Or are you beautiful because I love you?
~Richard Rodgers and Oscar Hammerstein II,
Friday, September 18, 2009
I'm celebrating Christmas in the NOW. I choose to feel Christmas everyday as a way of being happy always. The intensity of my feeling rises because the Philippines has the longest celebration of Christmas season, I think.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
I put together my 2 hands in a clapping mode and heard the clapping hands saying: "bravo!", "praise-worthy", "excellent", "glorious".
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I just got a text message, forwarded message actually, from a friend that says:
A friend is never a coincidence in our life, they are once a stranger, meant to come into our life to bring you priceless lessons and funny memories. Thanks for being one!"
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Me: "Well, actually I always treat them even on no special occasions. Now, there are hot dogs left on the fridge after cooking pasta for my students. These cats have them. On a cold weather like this, I think the best treat I can give them is a cuddle. Is it not sweet?"
Guy: "Yes, it's sweet. But you know how cats are, sometimes you try to cuddle them and they squirm away from you. Like some women, actually." (giggles)
Me: "You think so?" (laughs) "Because that who cuddle is so vague. Precision is preferred."
Guy: "Precision cuddling." (laughs) "Only you would come up with something like that. You're one of a kind."
Saturday, December 20, 2008
I was a fool...
I was vulnerable...
I couldn't control myself...
But I have hoped!
What are praises for? I'm not used to it, anyway. I haven't heard my parents praise me nor my brother does; and that, I don't understand. I just have few friends though and sometimes they praise me a little and I don't mind that attention. At work, knowing my boss, he is not the type of person to give praises generously. With my students, there are of course petty little comments but it outweighs those damn complaints against me. Thus overall, I hear just few praises since I got consciousness in the world.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
(Answer to the Final Exam Given by Dr. Ofelia M. Carague for the Subject Management Information System)
- Transformation of industrial economies
- Transformation of business enterprise
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
A friend of mine has invited me to render a short talk on Web stuff over a group of students, faculty members and school officials in their campus. Well, I never had the second thought to consider the idea because I think it will open so many opportunities for me. Not in terms of money but exposure and experience are best earned beyond monetary value and besides, I never thought somebody would think I am capable of conducting lectures on IT and let the audience believe I am credible to my speech. :D
Sunday, August 10, 2008
- That I'm alive today. That I can breath and I can move.
- For another day or another 24 hours of time. For another chance to do the things I want to do.
- For peaceful night that has just passed by. For a good sleep and a chance to take a rest.
- For the mattress, the linens and the pillows that give comfort while I subject myself to snore and to dream.
- For the toilet seat that catches my body wastes.
- For the warm atmosphere the sun gives throughout the day. Such lead me to appreciate the damp of the wind over my skin.
- For the amazing light of the sun that makes it possible to see the beauty of all things in my environment.
- For the music, its rhythm or its beat that leads me to connect to my soul.
- For the physical exercise I had learned. For the joy and understanding that it is good not only for my body but also for my mind and spirit.
- For some electronic gadgets that provide me information and give means of communication to loved ones in far away places.
- For knowledge on so many things, for insights and meaningful ideas.
- For food that I get and for the tools used to prepare the food.
- For my taste bud. For the sensation I get while I eat or drink.
- For the water that flows out of the shower as I stand beneath it. For another sensation as I feel the rushing of liquid from my head down to my neck, to my body, to my legs and down to my feet.
- For the cleansing power of soap in my bath.
- For the strength to do some chores. For unusual cheerfulness and light feeling as I do it, and even until I finish it no tiredness that I feel.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
For a peaceful and happy life, they say that grudges or anger must be rejected or forgotten in just a short period of time. That might be true but very ideal. What I don't like about idealism is I end up being frustrated. At this point in time, I think I'm in the transition of adapting some kind of philosophy... details about it I couldn't express yet but as you dear readers go through this scribble, you'll probably get a glimpse on what I mean. Anyway I simply believe that there is no such thing as "forgetting the past" because every event that occurs in one's life tend to retain in memory be it positive or negative.
What really is important are the feelings and the pattern of thoughts that grow each day within me. These things change. I knew I had been sick while keeping all those grudges but very hopeful that this sickness can be cured. Since those people I've dealt with left great impact to my life, I say it will take a lot of time for me to get healed.
I'll try to practice the combination of logical thinking and intuitive mind. I want happiness and joyfulness and I have to act on it. Unfortunately, with all these grudges I have I wouldn't get to the state of being what I really want. I can go for forgiveness and I can do that not only because they say it is the right thing to do but most of all because I FEEL it's the best thing I'd like to do. I'll be forgiving and the reason for that is only "ME". I need to be aware of what I'm thinking and what I want because everything that I do is connected to every single person or thing in the
universe. Understanding causes and effects, and at the same time recognizing what I love to
do would make my goal in the first hand happen. I don't need to worry about the "how" of these
because it is the work of God.
******* Off topic:
You probably have noticed that it took me so long (again) to update this blog. Primarily because I am currently reading the book of "The Tao of Physics" (Fritjof Capra) and at the same time been reading other blogger's "Laws of Attraction".
And besides, brand new school year has just begun and work calls for arranging class schedules, preparing syllabi, & reading/re-reading lesson topics... but I have to and I love to write many things in all my blogs.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
There is the world and the universe that become the cradle for us humans, for all other habitats, and also for all non-living things ever named by men. By simply using our major senses, we knew and we experienced lots of things that were either tangible or intangible. The environment around us constitutes both the things that are seen and unseen. How do these things begun? I, in no doubt believe that there is one great author of the whole universe, of other mystified heavenly bodies, of the living and the non-living things, of those seen and unseen, and of course that includes people like you and me. One key principle of how or why everything was taken into place is the basic system that only God has the original idea. The system of an atom, for example. Such basic system has its own purpose and absolutely coincide with another basic system, or probably with more basic systems at one or another span of time; and thus every activities of all these systems provide significant effect that can further result to a new object/specie or a different behavior among other system/systems. And of course, there also exists a larger system which actually constitutes several small or basic systems. With this larger system, it is also possible to produce even more larger system depending on what purpose the creator wants it to be. Obviously I can refer to various systems like the oxidation of compounds, the photosynthesis of plants, and the evaporation-condensation-sublimation-precipitation stages of the water cycle system.
Science, in this perspective, becomes the knowledge of God. In my own definition, it is I think the understanding of the properties and behavior of all the living and non-living matters, the tangible and intangible things, including those seen and unseen. Science provides the explanation of various processes ranging from its core functions, up to the complexities of co-existing processes. It also covers cause-and-effect relationships and all the possibilities of revealing "hidden knowledge" that leads to science's flexibilities so that new inventions can come out. Through science, man becomes co-creator of God. With my lowly opinion, out of my observations of the world around us, I think that God is continuously at work. Everything is changing out of the will of God. When I say that "God is at work" does not literally mean that way; but rather He lets man do things like bridges, cars, computers so that both earth and life stay in harmony with each other. Let me point out that science is not evil at all.
In the early history of mankind, humans fall into imperfection from its initial state of perfection. Seems to me that there is certain thought (malice) that cause humans to fall. As man begun to entertain a single unwholesome thought, most likely he/she does it. Then chain-reaction and another issue of cause-and-effect relationships took place. More unwholesome thoughts follow: greed, selfishness, envy, insecurity, pride and what have you? Yet, there is one idea that puzzles me here. Of course I personally have a great dependent on God and many times in my life I have had miracle experiences and various signs that He exists in my life. I owe God in wonders but I hope God will forgive me if I question why at that first moment of man's downfall, He allowed an incident that leads man to sin? Did He actually authored a mistaken system or subsystem that cause one man commit mistake too? Yes, I understand God gave man a free will to decide and so did the woman chose to stay nearer and nearer to the temptation. If I may have answer my own question, my answer would be: God indeed is mysterious and probably those were (and also there are) the times that God provided a gap between man and Himself; to humble ourselves, to seek Him and draw near to Him in man's ways.
Since the time that God put down His curse to the offenders, the world then was put into struggle; but He is actually within our premises, who guides, teaches, helps, comforts, and provides omnipresently. His knowledge is so huge that he slowly reveals to mankind through science. Technology, the product of science has been part of any of the world's system already. Technology is neither good nor bad. To what way it is being used that surely destroys nature. It's the people's mindset that must be properly taken care of (or cured) especially when the world is already aware of the negative consequences occurring in using technology. Something must be resolved or a new alternative must be discovered, and still science has to do with it!
On the other hand, I see that negative consequences as well as somebody's mistake provide balance to another system/person/habitat/things. In practical lives, we learn from these and we get cautious because we once made mistake already or somebody has hurt us that left impact to our lives. Another way to view adverse effect, it provides intensive approach to the same system because feedbacks can be gathered and analyzed resulting to redesign of the existing system. It follows an input-process-feedback cycle until the desired output is achieved. That's why I see that in this current lifetime of ours, both nature and technology are meant to exists for man to utilize and enhance. But man must take the responsibility to preserve part of nature or grow more of it for human consumption.
The current lifetime that we have today are still imperfect. Man and God are hand-in-hand at work to go with the process leading to a one point of lifetime known as the eternity. Before peacefulness or eternal life can happen, several struggles has to occur first because probably mankind has already enjoyed a lot selfishly, abused the environment, or broke many human spirits; but along with this struggles, something is happening to those who choose to be at the side of the ultimate Creator. Hence struggle, paralleled with transformation is the way to a life that God has promised.
Monday, May 5, 2008
Photo courtesy of Fotosearch.com
First, a lover shows off only everything nice and hide flaws at the early stage of the relationship while a friend is never afraid to provide transparencies of himself. A lover always put the best foot forward because he really sells himself to gain acceptance. A real friend doesn't need to be pretentious because he simply wants to be liked for who he is.
Secondly, a lover can lie when treachery comes into place because he tries to keep his partner from being hurt; but treachery is least likely to happen among friendships because a friend cannot afford to hurt a friend's feelings. A (lying) lover is so afraid to lose his partner while he could go on cheating but a friend believes it is unfriendly to cheat the other.
Lastly, if that person is intimately here today and gone tomorrow, he is just a lover (momentarily). A friend can always be there at one place in my life and not necessarily a sexual partner. A lover can walk away when old flames won't keep on burning. A friend doesn't need burning flames to stay.
I'm afraid to have a lover like those mentioned above but somehow I want a lover who is not that kind. Basically it's my joy to have a friend. And I need a friend though somehow I want a friend and a lover in just one person. I want it, meaning I can live with or without it. There's a big difference.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
I simply understand that at this present time of ours, part of us is material being. We are imperfect but are given a chance to heal or reconstruct such imperfection into something that is spiritual by going into several stages or processes. There are lots of challenges here in the place we call 'world' but as spirits, we look forward to another dimension where love, life, and happiness are everything. Thus freedom is not anymore essential because of the perfection that everybody has got.
I also believe that there are two kinds of spirits, the good and the bad. That's why wearing this temporary body of ours means we are subjected to those two conflicting forces. That's why also, I believe people need rules (or perfect rules). Just like in paper, we could not draw a straight line without using a straight edge. Yet, I think straight edge will also be unnecessary if every spirits are one. The ideal one is to have a GOOD spirit.
To prove that we are one in spirit, I consider 'NO' answers to all of the following questions:
- Is it possible to NOT see litters if there are "candy wrappers" to scatter?
- Is there NO collision when other cars drive into your lane or tries to block you way?
- Can we see ugly faces if everyone around us looks good?
- Can we suffer pain when people do not err because they are transformed?
- Do we feel insecure when we know we are as important as others?
Therefore, living in this imperfect world is being responsible, recognizing "perfect rules", practicing virtues, and allowing God to take control. That way, we would be able to transform ourselves into spiritual being towards happiness and love in time eternity, on a peaceful environment, at a place called heaven.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Or genetic manipulation;
Or genome sequencing;
Or germinal choice technology.
Well, so much of scientific terms but i think they just mean one thing: we are facing the period wherein men become creator of some "living things".
Much more that pushes me to think and discuss this topic is that the Vatican considers genetic engineering as one of the seven deadly sins of our present times.
Debate seems running on my mind: a sin or not? Good or bad? Benefits vs. dangers, which one outweighs the other?
Shall we live in fear?
I just read (http://www.emagazine.com/view/?632):
"The Nobel Prize-winning chemist Robert F. Curl of Rice University spoke for many of his colleagues in science when he proclaimed that the 20th century was "the century of physics and chemistry. But it is clear that the next century will be the century of biology."
And also this:
Now my dear readers, I'm waiting for your comment....
Because I'd like to learn from you, too.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Wednesday morning, on my way to work I came face to face with someone I really don't wanna see anymore. (Uh oh, wake up, Albine. The world is so small and there's a huge possibility to bump into anyone living in this planet.) I share the same ride on a public vehicle with this woman -- let's call her Sali -- who left a great impact to my life. Actually she is not the only person I almost swear I really do not want to see anymore for my entire life. They are a family. The story behind it is such a big family issue but I'd rather not say those details here.
This post I'm doing today, really is difficult. I wonder if I could write something out of honesty or without protecting a nice image of myself here in the blog arena. I see that sometimes honesty allows myself to expose my negative sides. That takes a lot of courage, I think. It's good to build a good image, but most of the time it's better to expose my dark sides because real nice people would accept me despite of these flaws I have. I just hope that my story's gonna give a picture of the real me.
Going back to Sali, I have this little grudge with her and among other else in her household. The fact that they're my neighbors means it's not really good to harbor these things in me. It's not healthy, I know. That's why to be good enough I said: "Okay, I want peace therefore you would never hear me saying anything against you. We've got no more connection, we ended our story and the book has been closed." Deep in my heart it's like saying I'll live life as if I never knew them before. That's why I always wished that our own roads won't cross anymore. But neighbors are neighbors. We're in just a small community and we access to common services. Then after almost a year of 'loosing' that connection, here we are face to face with one another. What a discomfort feeling on a Wednesday morning. My thoughts kept telling they've been unfair and sad stories kept coming back. Heart pounds, arms and legs tremble, and teary eyes were all I had that moment. I tried to manage so I decided to get some coins and pay for two rides: for me and for her, Sali. I turned to her and said, "I paid for your ride, don't bother". She smiled back. I didn't feel okay despite of her gesture. Even until I took off the ride while I left her in the same public vehicle.
I thought such close encounter would be a very rare encounter. On the contrary, the next morning (Thursday) the same thing happened again. In one vehicle we sat side by side. She noticed me first. I didn't say any words but I just looked at her. I don't know if she is being comfortable with me and she asked: "Work this summer period?" ...I nodded. "Who's with you in the house?" I raised my two hands, palms up signaling "none" without saying a word again. "Are you okay?" I nodded, the second time. I really avoided to talk because I felt like crying and I'd like to hide her my cries. I never wanted to make these cries so obvious to anyone else who know me this time. Before we took off the ride, she said: "I'll pay for your ride." Then I didn't say anything again and allowed her to pay for me. I never said anything, even until we parted each other that Thursday morning. I even forgot to say "thank you for paying for my fare".
I don't know If I've been rude but I was sure I still have the same old grudge because otherwise, I would never feel as bad as that. Overcoming this grudge is the greatest struggle I think I have for now. Actually I don't wanna call it grudge. And sometimes I tell myself, "I don't wanna keep it anymore. Let go of all those grudges and bitterness." The solution for this, I think is forgiveness.
Ahh, forgiveness! What is it, by the way? Is it easy to learn?
Friday, March 21, 2008
Music... what have you!?
Thought the beat of you would make me so high...
The silence in my room indeed broken;
Zest to work hard, yes I got from you...
But to what extent? And until when?
Oh no, as if I'm back to same old story!
This damn feeling of loneliness never leave me here.
Why do I feel so empty?
Ahhh, maybe I just have nothing.
Nothing in this world but be heard...
Nothing that I need is to express;
Think I have lots of it in store,
But where's the other end?
Hey, music! Lucky you because I hear you.
I listen to you, I can be with you all night!
Thanks, you gave me company...
But sorry to say that I hate you!
...Induced me to longing;
Longing and longing.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
A Reaction to the Study Conducted by the PEW/Internet and American Life Project Entitled “The Internet and Daily Life”
According to the PEW Internet and American Life Project, many Americans use the Internet in everyday activities. Their findings show that majority or 92 percent of Internet users in
The succeeding sections would elaborate the impact of the Internet in my daily life. Categories are presented in an order of having the greatest impact value on me, down to the line which has the least. There is one item I added because I knew for myself that I actually want a laptop for earning purposes. What I mean here is I can use my laptop to handle some extra jobs.
I Use the Internet Primarily Because I Need to Communicate
I am not an American but if they would ask me which among these four categories (i.e. information seeking, communications, transactions, and entertainment) play the greatest impact on me, it would be communications rather than information seeking which came top on American survey. Economical, convenience, efficiency, and reliability are the advantages I see on daily Internet communications. I see that this type of communication could allow me to experience these advantages in terms of posting announcements, conducting inquiries, providing updates, and joining discussions. Hence, I use e-mail, chat services, web logs, and forum services to reach my colleagues, students, friends, classmates and even other people I have never met in person before.
The economic side of it is obvious because my Internet service providers (ISP) allow unlimited access time for some fixed amount on a monthly basis. These services, particularly e-mail are an efficient and very reliable form of communication because its content can be viewed repeatedly. I think it is equally reliable and credible, too as the old-time letter/document in paper (tangible) form especially on serious issues that may require irrevocable expressions. That’s why I am so serious and very careful in conversing with anyone over the Internet. I could even keep some back up copies and print them as well so that no one would deny what they have said to me. Likewise, I could never deny everything I have said though this it is just electronically conversed. Along with e-mail service is the possibility of getting documents via file transfer as attachments to an e-mail message. I can now minimize spending money on courier service because of the Internet.
The web is of course very efficient because my message can go through its recipient in matter of seconds. Chat service or conferencing is the best way to get efficient Internet communication and the best thing about it is I can connect to people to anywhere they are. Neither seas nor mountains would deprive two parties to communicate each other as efficient as pressing the send button and getting reply in seconds’ interval – that is for instant messaging service. A higher level of satisfaction would be such that turning the microphone, speaker and the web camera on so that both ends would hear and see each other online. Communication over long distances would be as fast as talking to one another in person, face to face.
The convenience I got in this form of communication occurs in several ways. With my experience, broadcasting by means of web log, web sites and user group forums via Internet is very ideal to post or receive announcements and information updates. Before Internet times, broadcasting seldom happened among small group of people because one has had to find radio stations or bulletin boards to announce upcoming events. The assurance of reaching intended recipients that time was very minimal because not all people listen to a single AM or FM broadcasts. Also, not all people listen to them at the same range of time. So, to increase the possibility of sending the same information during that time, one has had to hop from one radio station to another or post on many bulletin boards (electricity poles in worse scenarios) but communication was less effective though. Nowadays, it would be a lot different. If I would be a president of an organization, I would provide a website for that one and at the same time I would make my blog site accessible to every members of my organization. I can have the comfort of writing those matters over the Internet without the hard time of traveling to those radio stations, and public places where bulletin boards are available. Most of all, I would not be a contributor to dirty environment by leaving all those electricity poles alone! That way, it would be easy to manage my group. As a teacher, I make use of user group so that my announcements and other communications would be conducted online. Another advantage in terms of convenience provided by the Internet is the idea that I can participate to threading and some discussions or I can inquire on something to some companies, agencies and organizations without the hassle of asking for an appointment with somebody. And more importantly, the Internet helps eliminate those waiting hours that I can possibly take while on queue if I only want to ask about what requirements I need to submit for enrollment, or ask for a form for civil service exam application, or inquire about how much I have contributed to my social security. On small issues, I don’t need to physically attend to various seminars to learn about something because I find it easy to join some groups who share ideas of the same interests. For example, I joined a group of vegetarian people, raise my concern, get their opinions and continuously interact with them. The relief I can get on various communications while just sitting in this corner of my home and being online would be endless as I appreciate what this big e has to offer.
Internet Information Searches in General is Advantageous but I Need to be Very Careful about Those Pieces that I Get
I must admit Internet search engines help a lot but I am actually not happy with it. In a positive way to look at it, authors in general say the just a single substance on concepts or ideas of one matter, yet others present the same topic in a different manner. For example, when I need the topic about “phased approach to business process reengineering” different sources give various lights. And when I search for the topic “business process reengineering”, I need to realize that this topic is also the same as “business process restructure”. Surprisingly, some writers call it “business reorganization”. In this case, I need not complain because even in the old times of pen and print, books of different authors vary in presentation and usage of terms. I think that every researcher must acquire a certain level of intelligence to weigh down all the information he/she can get over the Internet. As a teacher, I don’t easily rely on materials downloaded from the Internet but to give a level of trust on some authors, I could check if such material goes with authentic book publications. As I get tons of information in my daily searches, I end up so confused and tired. Many times I can open a file but in the end it does not contain the information that I want. Sometimes, the topic that I am searching for seemed to be too specific that I need to find another key term in broader idea.
Information is easily gathered over the Internet and this incredible machine where I compose this essay, connected to another incredible machines elsewhere in the globe would simply give me all that I have asked. Compared to my days when in high school, I remember I had to travel across town just to find a household who owns a set of encyclopedia. In there I can conduct my research on my science subject. Information sources were very limited that time even when I was in college because the Internet was not here then. Students/learners today are so lucky that even if they don’t have any PC at home, Internet cafes exist in many places and they can go online anytime. Some Internet cafes are open 24 hours a day. There’s another context I can see in a negative view with students who utilize the web to search on something but again, I better discuss it on another essay. The idea I want to emphasize here however, is that large possibility of all information can be provided by the Internet including obscene and malicious items. I think that one must possess a level of maturity, not in terms of age but in terms of wisdom or responsibility. After all, as I perceive it, e-democracy means democracy of every citizen (of the world) to possess freedom of expressions over the web, with Internet as the main tool. A matured and responsible citizen who may receive unwholesome items from this media may neither be rattled, nor lost, nor corrupted yet find the Internet a better tool to carry on most of his/her daily activities.
The impact of the Internet on me, when used as a tool to search information would be this way: there’s a need for me to achieve certain level of intelligence so that I can just read the information but later accept it as true only if agrees to my personal experience (not other’s opinion) or proven facts/universal principles. I am neither affected, nor dismayed, nor even cheerful to know those Internet scandals and various crimes exist over the web simply because I believe they wouldn’t succeed if no one would patronize them nor hail their activities.
Extra Jobs would be the Third Reason Why I Need the Internet Day After Day
I’ve got a full time job in teaching and I have part-time job in other school. When time permits, I would add another job by going back to writing online which I have started before. I can’t write online nowadays because graduate school demands a great amount of time, mental and physical resources of me. On between breaks, I might as well write again most especially because I need a payoff over laptop usage and Internet consumption. Sooner or later I plan to go back to my web logs, organize it well, build a better network, and earn from blogging. Then, if those plans were done and if I become adopted to unfamiliar sets of activities in my daily life, I would either study a couple of software because I want to design, create or maintain web sites of some businesses or I would find a better alternative, perhaps get jobs online, transact over the web, and do jobs remotely.
Finding Entertainment and Transacting Everyday Affairs Online Are the Least Reasons Why I Need the Internet
It could be true that many times I go online to read for pleasure or to listen to several types of music but I have never experienced conducting transactions over the Internet. These factors, the entertainment side and the commonplace transactions side of the Internet indeed remain insignificant to me, because I am not that type of person who uses computers just to play games nor who pay bills online. I don’t enjoy virtual games, but I admire programmers behind these types of software. I thought it was good to transact so got the access to my bank account (online); and thought also that I would be able to pay my electricity bills. But after a while it was not an effective tool for me because it was such a hassle to remember passwords. Imagine keeping different account names and passwords for companies like my bank and my electricity provider. One time I forgot my log on information so I tried logging on several times until I was blocked from using my bank account online. What a mess!
On the other hand, there are things I appreciate with the entertainment side. These are listening to music, reading, or pursuing my hobby. I had signed up to web sites who allow keeping play lists and providing songs of various artists. Lately, too I found out that it is a good hobby to keep some web logs so I added blogging to my hobby list. Blogging for me was a combination of executing my hobby and reading for pleasure. Many times I go reading from one weblog to another. It doesn’t end there. That was because I even got a social e-network with blogging.
On conducting commonplace transactions over the web, I see that it has that less impact not only on me but on my country in broader sense. Commercial establishments here are not yet ready to adapt that kind of marketing strategy. How much more with those government agencies here?
Touched one charming charming device. Unfamiliar.
It's been here several days ago.
Just purchased very intriguing coffee-maker device.
Seems I can get along with it.
Cup of water. Teaspoonful of ground coffee.
Plug it. Push the button. Wait...
Hmmm, smells good! Taste it?
Wow, fine! ...Bitter. That's fine.
Dash of sugar... brown sugar, muscovado sugar.
Enough to experience bitterness.
Sip... Another sip...
Aha! Got an idea... Chocolate. Special dark chocolate!
Just a few chips. Dropped into it. Stir.
How is it?
Hmmm! Guess what, i like it! Terrific. Bitter-sweet good.
Forget about troubles. Relax.
Hear that saxo music playing.
See that cup of coffee you're holding.
Are you complete?
Uh, oh... wish you were here.
Monday, February 25, 2008
My professor wants us to submit a reaction paper on this article:
Why IT Doesn't Matter Anymore
And this is my essay:
- Provide a good sense of fund appropriations to agriculture but at the same time promoting the strength of industry, finance, and information-intensive services;
- Devise programs among rural livelihood to strengthen microeconomic levels and maintain self-reliance among the poor;
- Devise programs to protect the welfare of marginalized sector of the farming community; and
- Adopt technologies and standards to bring country’s produce to global market, with competitive price without sacrificing quality.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
And I thought I have to update my blog, just in time for Valentine's day. It's a love day. Funny so it seems but really love has been the favorite themes of many. What I'll say here, you may already have heard before but still, I want to give it a try. Here it goes:
It's more than just a feeling;
It moves people to do many things
Of high-moral value.
I believe in God,
Love is God Himself.
I believe in marriage,
It is the union between a man, a woman,
I believe in life,
We go on each day, hoping to have life;
But there's no beautiful life
Wow, can't believe this... been back to my blog again. But yeah, I'll still have some more. See you.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Hey, Albine... It's been so Long, What Happened?
Indeed, it's been so long since I last updated this journal of mine. For lots of reasons like graduate school requirements, inaccessible Internet, assorted feelings and ideas, adjustment to new schedule, and other things.
In graduate graduate school, that thesis of mine and other little projects ate up my time for so many days. The very main reason for not blogging so long. I planned to post one especially on the day I'd like to commemorate my daughter's birthday. My regret I couldn't find time to write a single post or greetings for her, somehow. Then it was semestral break at work and sem break for Internet facility, too...(LOL) Sorry for myself because I couldn't get subscription at home. A couple of weeks had passed and I got unorganized or undecided on what topic to post next. Is it about the bonding moments with some friends? Or about my second date with Sean? The holiday I spent in Marinduque? Or another post on prejudice, racism, and Philippine colonial mentality? Or shall I re-style first this site of mine, change skin, add some blog rolls, links, and etc.? So I end up with nothing on my blog for that span of time. Finally sem break is over but still I had a hard time adjusting to my new schedule. It was the start of another semester and I had lots of preperations at work. Then I was figuring out how I can reconcile my free time with blogging moments.
Do You ever Know How to Relax, Albine?
For my come back post, I'd like to say again I'm so busy. Really I am. In fact, I can just get a 5-hour average sleep a day. Busy with work, studies, and other things. I wonder if life has been designed for me this way forever. But now's a red-letter day in the Philippines and I chose to stay home. Eventhough, to-do list is haunting me, especially household chores... laundry, dusts around the house, unfolded clothes, the bathroom, dried fallen leaves at the small "garden", unattended orchids, pile of unsorted papers... hmm, whatelse? How about pampering myself? Wish I could get time to exfoliate my skin, self-hair-spa, and self-manicure/pedicure. Most of all, I'd like to sleep longer today, early in the afternoon. Ah, but my rule, just for today is -- relax, slow down, don't rush, spontaneity, and silence.
Being alone in the house seems so easy to relax, but for my state of being it's the other way around. I hate the silence here. It's so lonely. I can keep the Media Player running but still silence is all over my place. I'm aching. Today I'm taking my time outta here, but is this my kind of break? See the stream of tears coming from my eyes. Why do moments of darkness keep coming back? Why can't I forget such betrayals they made? The fiction stories my ex-lovers told me and the hypocrisy and insensitivity of some people whom I thought were my friends. How will I learn to forgive myself? Guilty feelings and regrets... things like "I shouldn't do that" or "I should have done this" or what-ifs. These thoughts never leave me alone here. And why am I so fearful of what lies ahead of me? I hate uncertainties, is there ever a way for me to get the things that I desire?
Negative thoughts are lingering. Hope I can help myself. May not be the right move but I can leave these thoughts and check out my to-do list. Then I would spontaneously start whatever I feel I'd like to do. It's because I'm taking my time outta here. Yes, that's why I better keep myself busy rather than entertaining those lingering unwholesome thoughts.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Cats, baboons, blue skies, and vegetables;
Things that trigger, my name to recall;
I'm glad that not only a single key
Can make you remember an ordinary me.
But let me tell you, dear:
I remember you more than you do.
Our homes were at each opposite sides
Of this small world, a sphere;
From the moment that we connect,
I knew you've been far and also you've been near.
Since then, you said, so sweet to hear:
You missed me so many times,
That you wished I was there.
But let me tell you, dear:
I miss you more than you do.
You react when you hear me say:
"I think of you more than you do";
Same thing, you object when I wrote:
"I miss you more than you do".
So, you asked: How do I gauge that?
Well, I use no gauge, in fact.
The things I believe, the feelings I feel,
The only one who can tell is me;
If others can do better,
I shall do the best that I can;
If you do more than I can do,
I shall exceed to all your ways.